We had an amazing church service yesterday. I got to sing, which always fills me up like no other, and I was especially excited to sing a new song our worship leader wrote called "Rescue" with him. I wish I had a recording of it to share - it's just so beautiful.
Our pastor (and one of our BFFs; we double-dated with him & his wife Saturday night and laughed hysterically the whole time. We're both the same age, which has been fascinating, b/c we've never had a young pastor before, but he totally has a gift! JB & I both eagerly look forward to his sermons every week! Sorry to digress, anyway he...) spoke yesterday on hope.
Super-famous 1 Corinthians 13:13 says, "And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." These three should be our ultimate distinguishing characteristics. If someone who claims to be a follower of Christ has no love in his heart for anyone, we see he is obviously not really a Christian. If a someone says they're a Christian but isn't sure if there's really a heaven or if Jesus is really real, (no faith,) of course we know he is not really a Christian. So why then is it "acceptable" to us when Christians walk around without hope: "Well, I just don't know what we're going to do... Things are so bad & so tough, we're just in despair... I can't stop freaking out..."
That hit me like a ton of bricks - especially right now, since we don't know what/where the next few months could bring us, and b/c I do feel like I've had a major break-through on this point. My close friends keep asking if there's been any job offer news or decisions, (nope,) and they cannot believe I am not freaking out. A couple years ago, I would've been churning 24/7 over the possibilities...but I know it's b/c deep down, I just wanted control (& my way,) and I kept trying to come up with ways to make it happen, (none of which ever came to fruition, b/c - HELLO - God was in control; not me!) I really feel like I've grown in hope - not that I don't have TONS more growing to do!!!!! But compared to how I would have been mulling different scenarios ad nauseum, which would have been (& was) a total waste of time instead of TRULY trusting (not just *saying* I trust) God to put us in the perfect places & positions? Yeah. My hope is in Him.