Reeling...But God is Here
I have been on an emotional rollercoaster this week. I was happily nostaglic & thinking about what marriage means. I was sad & loney, with VBS being over and my few friends here unavailable to get together. I was super scared about bringing up some changes with someone close to me. Through it all, though, God was very present. He prompted two old friends to call me (& for me to answer! I *NEVER EVER EVER* talk on the phone! Email, text, or FB, please,) when I needed to hear from them, and He prompted me 3 times to stop putting it off & be honest when I needed to be. Although I was scared, He even delivered a confirmation that I did the right thing; this just happened to be my email devotional for this morning:
Proverbs 27:5-6 (New Living Translation)
5 An open rebuke
is better than hidden love!
6 Wounds from a sincere friend
are better than many kisses from an enemy
(And I didn't even say anything that harsh! ;-))
After all that weighing on me, I got a call today from a BFF here (one of very, very few.) Her husband is filing for divorce, and she & her kids are moving home (thousands of miles away) THIS SUNDAY.
WHAT?!
Jaw-dropping blindside... (For her to a degree, as well.)
I understand her wanting to go home 100%...but just...wow. I'm stunned. I can't believe we just came back, and now she'll be gone. I'm praying for them, and I know God will show up, again...but yeah, still reeling... (And SOOOOOOOOO GLAD JB is home tonight!!!)
Proverbs 27:5-6 (New Living Translation)
5 An open rebuke
is better than hidden love!
6 Wounds from a sincere friend
are better than many kisses from an enemy
(And I didn't even say anything that harsh! ;-))
After all that weighing on me, I got a call today from a BFF here (one of very, very few.) Her husband is filing for divorce, and she & her kids are moving home (thousands of miles away) THIS SUNDAY.
WHAT?!
Jaw-dropping blindside... (For her to a degree, as well.)
I understand her wanting to go home 100%...but just...wow. I'm stunned. I can't believe we just came back, and now she'll be gone. I'm praying for them, and I know God will show up, again...but yeah, still reeling... (And SOOOOOOOOO GLAD JB is home tonight!!!)
hugs...so sorry your transition is taking a few steps back. i don't know how hard it is, but can only imagine. i hope you have the hot weather we're scheduled to have this weekend and you can feel happy and be filled with joy again!
ReplyDeleteI used to pray for patience (bc I am seriously the most impatient person--ever!) and God kept giving me opportunities to learn patience. I was really worn out on the learning experiences so I stopped praying for anymore patience... I say this bc maybe you've been praying for a particular trait or quality and this is your opporunity to learn it (maybe unknowningly). It sounds like the discussion with the loved one has taught you a little something and maybe gave you some confidence in handling those types of situations. God never puts us through something without a lesson attached. And I'm sorry for your lonliness this past week. I think we all feel that way sometimes. It just makes the times when your friends do call all that more meaningful! I'm so with you on the phone thing! Not a big fan.
ReplyDeleteYou've got a nice long holiday weekend ahead of you that maybe you'll get to spend with your family at the pool!
PS I will keep your friend in my prayers. Divorce is such a hard thing to all those concerned. Hopefully her family will be able to support her and help her children through this difficult transition.
Thank you so much for the love!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd stepping out in faith & saying something Wednesday really did boost my confidence. :-) I needed to do that, (and need to do it more often, instead of letting things stew inside me while thinking I'm "keeping the peace.")
Thank you, also, for praying for my friend! They really need it!!!
i find i often shy away from speaking to a loved one when i know it might not come across well or feel the need to point out something that might not be comfortable for them, but the bible is clear that a rebuke spoken in love is the best kind of rebuke! even if it isn't harsh, its scary and i'm super proud of you for hearing God's prompting and stepping out in faith.
ReplyDeleteto your BFF there, i am SOOOOOOO sorry to hear that news. i will keep her in my prayers as well. i'm glad she is going home because she needs that kind of support, but i'm sorry she will be moving farther from you!
Thank you so much, Amy! I LOVE YOU!
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